The adoption process is tough. It’s the most scrutiny and stress we’ll likely ever go through. But I know it’s right, and I know you are out there.

A friend asked me the other day if I could just change all of this and get pregnant again instead, would I do it. My answer surprised me. I wouldn’t. Even right now, little one, when I ache for you and worry about where you are, and when I haven’t even held you yet. Because I know that I will give you everything I have and everything I am, but that there are parts of you that I cannot give you. Those things will come from your mom and they will be a part of who you are. I would never change those things about you, Love. I will cherish them.

In the meantime, I will wait and hope and pray with all my heart. Though this journey is so difficult, I will gladly travel it to get to you.